regret and a hall on my heart

Can't step back myself, I know that, but I can't stop thinking of the past days of my sweet life.
I'm not sure if it was the sweetie life, though, I had the days. The days were vacant already, which I should forget and go forward.

What I wanted to say is that I thought I'm moving on to the next day but I didn't actually.

One of my friends let me hear the person will be other's holding. I knew that but I felt some kinds of bloody hell after hearing of it afterward again.

It was the yesterday.
And now I felt like smoking.